I am still a closet padder.  The pile of old pillows that is ever-present in my closet will always give me away.  I’ve done it for longer than I knew that I liked fat—we’re talking 3rd or 4th grade, here.  My boyfriend knows I do it, but I’ve never done it when he’s around.  Out of habit, I only do it when no one is home, and that’s not often lately.

I can’t deny my secret attachment with padding, but I’ve never been ‘good’ at it per se.  I just mess around with pillows under my shirt/pants.  Sometimes I laze around the house with a little throw pillow under there, or sometimes I’ll try and fill up the 6XL shirt and shorts I have hidden away, too.  I can’t resist going as big as I can, but of course it never looks natural.  I just like the feeling of size.

I would totally pay money for a sort of movie-style fat suit, or at least a more natural way of padding.  Wearing something like that in public is something I’ve never thought about… but is very, very intriguing.  I will have to look into it.

It took a while, but it wasn’t too complicated.  I could never really muster up anything to ask him until we were both at our separate homes for the holidays and chatting over AIM.  That’s how we met, so for some reason it was easier to share things through that medium for us.

I brought up the idea, and despite him liking my body the way it was he approved.  I don’t remember exactly how the exchange went, as I lost the chat logs long ago.  He told me later that he just cared about my happiness, and that the idea of gaining seemed to really make me happy. 

That’s all there is to it really.  He knew I liked fatter things, so I suppose it wasn’t too much of a surprise.  He definitely doesn’t regret the decision now, that’s for sure.

Yep, that’s what the site looked like back before 2002, according to a friend of mine.  All the content that was there is still around the internet in some form or another.

Edit:  From LrgrThnLf himself:

Couldn’t see an obvious way to reblog your post, so RE Anonymous’s question on BB.. difference between old BB and current BB is that the old one had a specific profile system (hand coded by yours truly). Now all the content’s within the messageboard system. Ok, some of the content wasn’t copied across, but there’s a lot in it (stories, sightings, artwork, personal pics).. Reason it changed? Old one wasn’t sustainable, taking several hours per day to run.

If he’s anything like I was when I was a skinny guy, I think I can give some advice. 

If you’re going to be ordering a pizza, I imagine his plan is to stuff himself with it to sprout a bloated little belly.  You’ll win a lot of points if you try to encourage him to eat past his limit and maybe rub it afterwards.

If you get to fool around, give it some attention if you’re into it.  If you are, talk about how you’d like to see it bigger.  That will really push a lot of buttons.

Assuming he’s a skinny guy with a full belly, it’s not going to be anything too big or intimidating, so who knows—maybe you will really want to see it grow bigger.  I think this is a really good scenario.  It’ll give you a good chance to see if this is something you really like.  Good luck!

Hey thanks!  I’m giving my body a bit of a break at the moment, because 295 is being very stubborn.  At times like these, I have my concerns about how steadily the climb will continue over the next year.  I could gain another 75, or I could gain absolutely nothing—it’s hard to tell sometimes. 

All things going well, I would love to be 350 by the end of 2012.  A bit of a stretch, considering 30 of the pounds I gained this year were regained (so they were easier), but I’ll be satisfied as long as the number is higher than it is today.

A few websites for you!

• Grommr - my favorite—organizes meetups every so often.  I encourage you to attend them!
• BeefyFrat / BiggerCity - good dating sites to meet folks (paid)
• BellyBuilders - one of the oldest message boards out there

I’m sure you can befriend plenty of folks on these sites.  And even though I’m a horrible hermit who never leaves the house, I know it’s easy to find folks to meet up with there as well!

There’s absolutely no easy way to bring up someone’s weight in conversation without risking them getting offended or put-off.  They want to say something (either because they’re gossipy, or they’re genuinely concerned), but it’s too taboo most of the time.

The only time I see it attempted is by people casually bringing up dieting or something in conversation and trying to try to segue that into heavy hinting and get you to spill it.  It also happens with my Japanese coworkers, but only because they aren’t too familiar with our customs (and that being overweight is a serious no-no for them).

Most of the folks at my office don’t care.  They’re all much older than I am and they know to mind their own business.  My family I’m sure talks about it, but we’re not a very confrontational group.  We like to talk about each other in private—my boyfriend gets a lot of hinting from my parents when I’m not around.

That’s about the extent of it so far, but I’m sure I’ll run into more the bigger I get.  It’s going to be less of “oh, he’s just put on a little weight…” and more of “okay, he has to be doing this on purpose now.”

…was a really bad year for a lot of people.  So many people I know struggled with money, health, and finding work (like my poor boyfriend)… not to mention natural disasters, wars and riots, and so much political unrest around the world.

I have been so very lucky to have had by far the best year of my life—following two of the worst.  I moved from a 425 sq ft apartment to a high-rise; from Lexington, Kentucky to Washington, DC; from a coffee shop to a wonderful office job; and up over 75 pounds in weight!

I am so very thankful that I have been fortunate enough to have made such an improvement in my life, and it all began shortly after New Year’s last year.  I hope everyone has the motivation to do the same starting tomorrow.  Whether 2011 was good or bad, kick 2012 off with a bang.  Who knows what the next year will bring.

Very often, actually.  I think if you ask any random person if they’d be attracted to a fat guy, their initial mental image would unfortunately be of a flabby, pale, and generally unhappy man.  People tend to assume that fat people are disgusted with their bodies and make no effort to look good or take care of themselves, and immediately are turned off.

But gainers love their bodies, so they have the self confidence and desire to look good—and this challenges the above perception.  Once you show someone what a fat guy who takes care of and loves his body looks like, perceptions start to change pretty dramatically.  Self confidence is a very attractive thing!

Well yes, conventionally, feeding isn’t sexual.  But, you have to remember that for some guys in this community, it can be quite sexual.

I would just say be cautious.  You’re bound to encounter quite a few people who are uncomfortable with the idea of talking about such things with a minor, and you should be respectful of that.  At the same time, be cautious being pressured into doing things you’re uncomfortable doing.

It’d be shorter to list what doesn’t, heh.

I could run, but I’m getting to the point that my weight is hard on my legs if I do.  If you want to do cardio, there are a lot of machines (cycling, elliptical, etc) that take the impact out of it.  I do recommend keeping that sort of thing up as you gain!  Cardio really burns hardly any calories, so there’s really no reason not to do it.

Think about it!  Think about it a lot.  Think about the process, think about the body you want, think about everything!  If you want it really bad, you’ll be daydreaming about it constantly—and that’s what really motivates you.

Encouraging is such a common thing in this community because it really works.  Gaining is such a mental thing—thinking about the body you want and getting worked up actually can make you hungry and eat more than you ever thought possible.  Do what you can to work yourself up—daydream, draw, write stories, talk with people online, look at pictures—anything you can think of.

There’s nothing you have to eat to gain.  Sure, there are things that make it easier, but the basics are always going to be the same: take in more calories than you burn.  As long as you make sure you get all the nutrients you need, I’m sure it’s possible (though probably more expensive!).

Absolutely it does.  Though I have very little interaction with them, I can tell the dynamics are a bit different.  For one, there are quite a lot of terms used… feeders/feedees, BBW/BHM, fat appreciation… there are a lot of ‘em.  One they don’t use that often, though, is ‘gainer.’  If you’re going to search around for straight content or communities, though, I wouldn’t use that term.

The other thing I noticed is that women get more attention than straight guys do.  Especially in the world of drawing, the vast vast majority of content I see is fattened females.  Though, if there’s one thing I’ve learned from the internet, it’s that there’s always a group out there who is attracted to people like you, no matter what you look like.  Just gotta look for them.

Probably not going to post on the blogspot for a while, but it’s still there if you ever want to visit it!  http://gitbigger.blogspot.com/

I’m sure I’ll do longer posts here every so often, when the inspiration strikes.