beefybrothers asked: When did you first realize/accept that you were gay? And when did you decide that you officially wanted to start gaining?
The two happened around the same time, actually. I came out in high school after finding deviantART.com. On there, I found the still-enormous community of fangirls who love gay pairings. Not long before, I was struggling with the idea of coming out, so I joined a small group of folks who were obsessed with—of all things—the Jak and Daxter series. (I have since deleted most of the evidence of this, oh man.)
I came out to people on there because I was safely behind anonymity, and it felt great. Some girls just have a thing for gay guys and they were all over it. I decided to experiment with coming out for real by first telling my girl friends (which went well), and eventually to my parents (which went less well, but it’s all good now). I didn’t come out to my guy friends until after high school—a lot of them don’t even know, still. I like to only tell people if they ask.
Deciding to gain was sort of independent of that, though. I only really wanted to get bigger because I was tired of being teased about being skinny in high school. I had no knowledge of the gainer community, but I did like to draw fat things on deviantART. I tried my damnedest but I just couldn’t do it, back then. The “Official” gaining came later.
Anonymous asked: do you have any before and after pics? I'm looking for some motivation.
The most motivating pictures I have are some side-by-side pictures I first took of myself when I knew I had to stop gaining a couple years ago. I took a photo of myself from three angles in my bathroom to remember how I looked because at the time I had no idea just how much I would lose. When I moved and got my job, I took photos in the same poses to assess the damage.
I was so upset at how skinny I looked again. I had never seen myself at this raw, exposed angles before—especially side-by-side. I had only lost 20 pounds, but I looked and felt like I’d lost 100. That feeling motivated me to gain my ass off. 9 months later, I stumbled upon those pictures again and decided to continue the series with my new weight. I plan to continue the series as I gain, as well.
It’s just absolutely amazing how much different I look between them. Sometimes it’s easy to forget just how different a few pounds can make you look. 10 or 20 pounds may not feel like a lot, sometimes, but if you see yourself from the right angle—to take a step outside of your body and view yourself as others see you—it’s very enlightening.
I haven’t posted them here because there very… exposing. Very raw. You can see basically every flaw in my body—but turns out that was just the thing I needed to see to learn to love my body more.
The photos are on my Grommr profile, because this site is far too public for me to feel comfortable posting them. If you’re really interested, check them out there.
Anonymous asked: Hey big fan :) I have gained a considerable amount in just under 10 months. Im 5'9 and have gone from 126lbs to 211.6 lbs, where iam currently at. Have any advice for a guy who wants to get SO much bigger? I find gaining the best thing in the world. Nothing pleases me like seeing my weight go up on the scale.
If you have lofty, lofty goals like me, it’s all about patience. Gaining is a slow, slow process with plenty of hurdles that will drive you absolutely nuts. You just have to keep your eyes on the long-term, and before you know it, you’ll be enormous. I can hardly believe I’ve been at this for almost five years!
In addition to patience, I advise restraint. Even if you can gain very fast, you should try to keep a modest pace. Gaining quickly can be very hard on your body, you need to give it time to get used to the weight. Whenever I gain a huge amount (say 10 pounds in a month), I start to feel slow and unhealthy. Take the time when you hit plateaus or good landmarks to get accustomed to your new body by going to the gym and getting back into ‘shape’—as much as it’s possible.
Anonymous asked: Bellybutton question: In gaining my first 50 pounds my bellybutton has become very deep and cavernous. As I continue to gain, my bellybutton is becoming more shallow and is changing shape. I have seen some big guys develop the vertical quarter slot bellybutton and some very large guys have their innies pop out to outies. What has been your experience in gaining nearly 160 pounds?
Like you say, there’s so much that can happen. I imagine (once again, I’m like a broken record) that it’s all genetics, what happens. If you have a tauter, firmer belly, I’d think you’d grow the narrow, tight navel. Likewise for the reverse situation.
At first, mine was relatively shallow, because my belly developed firmer. Now, I’ve gotten a bit softer and my navel has gotten deeper and a bit wider.
As much as I’d like a firmer belly as I continue to grow, the idea of a real deep navel is very appealing, for some reason. I’m sure I’ll be happy either way.
Anonymous asked: How did you grow your belly without your pecs turning into "bitch tits"?
I will attribute most of that to genetics, though I don’t have anything against moobs. (Unless you’re referring to the ‘bitch tits’ that steroid-users develop if they don’t control their oestrogen and develop gynecomastia, then that answer is obvious.)
I do really love to work out my chest at the gym, so underneath I have a fair amount of muscle. I can’t be sure if that has anything to do with it, but I certainly like how they’re turning out so far, so I won’t change anything.
Anonymous asked: Do you have a link to your youtube page? Is it public? :)
Currently, no. I will link to any new unlisted videos I make here, in the future, though.
Anonymous asked: Hey, I was just wondering how you would identify yourself as a gay man. By that, I mean would you say you're more masculine, somewhat feminine, or in between? Do you ever feel like you act/fall under stereotypes and how do you feel about it? Or do you just not believe in masculinity and femininity when it comes to gay men? I know it's kind of a crazy question and not really about gaining but I thought I'd spice things up a bit lol. Thanks for taking the time to read this! Have a great weekend :)
I’d like to think I’m a very masculine guy, even though I don’t have a deep voice (somewhat embarrassed by it, that’s why I never talk in videos or do podcasts). I have, like, 10 shirts to my name, I like watching sports, and I never take more than 10 minutes to groom myself in the mirror. Plus, no one has ever assumed that I was gay before, so I suppose that’s a good indicator.
Of course I do feminine stuff as well, but I suppose I just don’t think about it in those terms very often. I always say a big requirement for gaining is to learn not to care what others think. In addition to not caring if people like my body, I don’t really care if what I’m doing is stereotypical or not (even outside of gay stereotypes).
I do have a bit of a problem with gay men who exemplify all of the negative stereotypes that gives our community such a negative stigma. So many ‘popular’ gay guys are promiscuous, vain, gossipy, obsessed with popularity and just generally conceited. I don’t think that sort of behavior should be encouraged at all, and I don’t know why it’s tolerated.
Anonymous asked: ive never told anyone this, but ive been padding myself since around the same time you said you started too, gaining hasnt really worked out and i still love to pad but whenever i do it i love the feeling but when i look in the mirror its always so flat looking. i've used pillows since the beginning but then i saw you and your water padding, it looks so much more natural so i'm really curious what you use and how you do it. also do you pad your chest too or just your belly? thanks for your help!
I was hesitant to share my technique to water padding, because it kind of ruins the mystique of it, but so many of you have asked. Here is the technique I used (it’s still being refined, though):
Parts:
1. normal, tight-fitting shirt
2. fitted athletic shirt (the kind that stretch to crazy sizes but are still skin tight)
3. a stretchy undershirt
4. a big, dark shirt to cover it all up
5. three trash bags with handles
6. tight pants/shorts or belt
Put on the tight-fitting shirt (1). This is just to keep the bags off of your body. Next, you have to put on the fitted athletic shirt (2) as though it were a pair of pants—legs through the sleeves.
Put the bags (5) within each other as best you can. Loop the handles together, and put one half of them around your neck like an apron. You should be able to hold up one side with your hand and the other side being held up by your neck.
Pull the athletic shirt up over the bags as high as you can. Put a shirt on top of all that (3). Put on your pants just below the bottom of the bags and cinch them up tight if you have to (6).
Fill the bags up with water. I have a detached shower head that I used, but you could also use the sprayer on your sink. Any hose-like attachment. Anything else would probably be too difficult.
It feels strange the first time. Don’t worry about the bags breaking unless they’re cheap or you’re pouring water too fast. You may have to hold up the bag as it fills if it gets too heavy.
Once you’ve filled it up as much as you want, loop the remaining handles over your neck. Put on the last shirt (4) to cover it all up. A darker shirt will cover up the stuff underneath even when stretched out.
The weight can be tough on your neck, and could be too much for the bags unless they’re heavy duty. Don’t try to walk around without holding it up with your arms if it’s really heavy. If you’re wearing a strong enough shirt/pants, you can also try to tie off the bag and let it be supported by just your clothing, but be careful when trying.
As for the padding for the rest of it, that’s tougher. I padded the ‘chest’ using just a rolled up towel. You might have to figure out what will look best for you, though.
Have fun! Hopefully I’ll have a more refined technique eventually.
Anonymous asked: What happens when you hit a plateau? I have been eating everything possible and cannot move up the scale. What have you done when this has happened? You once mentioned the use of "engorge" what is that stuff and does it work?
Plateaus are very frustrating. They come out of nowhere—you eat every day like normal, but suddenly you stop gaining. I’ve heard a lot of people tell me why this happens, but they all seem like theories. No one has ever given me a good explanation.
Either way, the key to getting past them is to keep eating like nothing’s happened. It’s difficult, though, to motivate yourself when you see no progress. I have a lot of trouble maintaining my intake when I know there won’t be any gains.
One day, though, it will just break. Usually before you give up all hope. I’ve seen it happen a hundred times, and even experienced it a few times myself (225, 240, 250, now 295…) Until then, just do what you can to make the best of it. Go to the gym more often, keep in shape. Don’t weigh yourself for a while. Like everything involved in gaining, just be patient.
Anonymous asked: I am 6'1' and now 260 up from 205. I love my ballbelly and everything that comes along with it except one thing. Every pair of pants or jeans I own has the button digging into my gut. They are the right size except when sitting for long periods of time. It hurts to the point of interfering with my appetite and we don't want that to happen. I cannot just simply be unbuttoned during business meetings. suggestions?
If you referring to those mushroom-looking steel buttons that most jeans have due to the thickness of the fabric, I can definitely see why they would hurt.
I try to avoid jeans or heavy pants—all of my photos have me in shorts, I think—for that reason, among others. I know that ‘replace all of your pants’ is probably terrible advice, but it may be tough to get around that problem otherwise. I know that they sell clasps that you can fasten to clothing which are much less intrusive, but they are definitely not as strong, and can’t penetrate thicker fabrics like jeans.
If I knew more about suspenders, I’d suggest looking into them as well. I know quite a lot of guys bigger than me who rave about them.
Made a Frequently Asked Questions page, which just links to some of the most common and my favorite questions. I feel bad for not answering questions if they’ve been asked before, but I’ve already repeated certain things too much.
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Anonymous asked: I've been considering gaining for a while now. If it was up to me, I would gain without a question, but I have a lot of pressure from my parents and my friends to stay in shape. I find gaining so erotic though and can't help but fantasize about what it would be like to be huge. What are some of the best things about being huge and is it easy to gain even without the approval of others?
It depends on how big of a part of your life they play. If you see your parents every day and they’re very militant, then it would be hard to escape harassment from them. But, as long as they don’t cook your meals for you, there’s not much they or anyone can do you stop you beyond that.
Same thing goes for friends. If your friends are like mine and are equally as strange as you are, then they won’t care. If they’re the kind of friends who will tease you mercilessly, you have to just accept it at first. There’s no hiding it, but eventually your confidence will deflate them. If you start to get teased because of your weight, you’ll find that you’ll take their ammo away by not responding negatively to it. Eventually, it will just become who you are, and you may even start to like it.
Some people can’t really handle teasing and pressure, and that’s okay. If you want it bad enough, though, the pros outweigh the cons no matter how bad they are. Being fat will never be perfectly socially acceptable, and you pretty much have to embrace that.
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