Anonymous asked: You said once that you gained weight because your weight is one of the few things about your body you can change. What other sorts of things would you change if you could?
Oh god, if you asked me this question a few years ago, the list would be a mile long.
In general, I have few complaints with my body. Things still come to mind, as I’m sure they would if you asked anyone the same question, but I feel like mine are mostly just nitpicky stuff. My nose is big. I have an absurd number of moles on my skin (which I technically could get removed but there’s so many. I have a high lip line, which has caused a few annoyances throughout my life. Nothing too significant, I don’t lose sleep over it.
I do have a bit of scoliosis, and it has been bothering me a bit in recent years. I’ve only really noticed it as I’ve become more aware of my body. It manifests in my neck looking a bit pushed to one side, and one of my shoulders being lower than the other, unless I consciously correct it. I have a vague childhood memory of the doctor telling my mom I had a ‘very mild’ case of it, but it wasn’t bad enough to warrant treating, so we didn’t. In retrospect, I wish we had.
I’d say the thing I dislike the most—and this is something I’ve been self-conscious about since grade school—is the size of my head. It was a big motivator for me gaining weight, because it looked quite silly in relation to my thin body. When I was fatter, it did look more proportional, and I still kinda miss that. If you offered me the opportunity to change one thing, I guess that would probably be it.
All in all though, I feel pretty good. Accept the things you cannot change, strength to change the things you can, and all that jazz.